Church

So I went to church today for the first time in like almost a year I think. It felt so good and I had to hold back tears (not sure why I wanted to cry but I kept it together) for most of the service. I prayed a lot that God would help bring me back to where I was in my faith when I chose to get baptized and that he would work with me and in me to know him better. I also prayed that he would help me get Cameron into going to the children's service. I want Cameron to know God and to learn about him. So please pray for Cameron and I that we can find our way back to God.

When I got home I was talking to Brad about how it felt good to go and he almost made me bawl. He got somewhat teary and said that he didn't like being home without me and that he wishes he had had time to shave so that he could have joined me. Which if you know us you know that Brad doesn't really enjoy church and he would rather have a relationship with God through thoughts and prayers at home then going to church. But to hear him say he wanted to join me made me feel so awesome.

I am very torn though with the church I attend. Last year when I quit going to church it was because I was very saddened and hurt by someone from the church. The pastor in fact. I had reached out to the church when Brad hurt his back so bad and Ethan had just been released from his hospital stay and we were so scared that the ITP would come back. And we knew that we would be filing bankruptcy soon. So I reached out for help and prayer. And the response from the elders were phenominal and they at one point pulled me into the office and prayed for us. Which all of that was amazing and I felt so blessed. But due to some things that were said and done after that I came to feel very hurt and saddened. And since then I have just avoided church and in a way kinda lost my way. I have been feeling very lonely/empty lately especially with our current living situation and no end to it in sight and not going to church so I finally decided that while I can't change our living situation for financial situation, I can change my church situation so I went to church. And although i am not ready to confront Pastor, I am praying that God will help me to forgive and move forward with my relationship with God and the church. I did kinda sneek out of church today before anyone could talk to me but then again, no one was chasing me down to talk to anyway. LOL

But like I said at the beginning, it felt good to be back at church and i am glad I went. I hope and will continue to pray that God will help me to get back into a routine of regularly going and hopefully be able to talk Cameron in to going too. Anyway now that I have bored everyone with my babbling I am going to go spend some time with Brad and the boys before I have to go to work for a couple hours. I hope that everyone's week goes well and that God will bless each of you. And while I most likely will not be going to church next sunday since it's Brad's 30th birthday I do plan on going the following sunday.

P.S. Denaye, do you know if they are doing a women's retreat this year? I really enjoyed the one i attended and would love to go again. SO please let me know if you know anything. Thank you.

Yes...we're alive. LOL

So anyway sorry i haven't been blogging lately. I have been reading everyone else's just not taking the time to write anything. Not much is going on with us. We are moved and fairly settled in at my sister's house and so far we are really enjoying living here. The boys are having a blast with Matthew and being able to pretty much be outside from sun up to sun down. They have been taking "tubbies" together (Matthew's word for baths) and having fun doing that.

Ethan is finally getting the hang of the potty training thing. Well kinda anyway. He does really good when we are inside and he needs to go pee but he doesn't tell us he needs to go potty outside until it's too late and then he has yet to go poop in the big boy potty. I am starting to get frustrated about the pooping thing. I don't know how to get him to go on the potty. I have tried telling him he will get more m&m's, my sister got him a big chocolate coin candy and told him he could have it when he goes on the big boy potty and I have done the "ewww, yucky, pooping in your underwear is so gross." But nothing is working so far. So if anyone has any tips, i would love some help. My sister said she just kept telling Matthew how gross it was and that poop went in the potty not in his underwear and after a few days he went on the big boy potty. Well we have been doing this for a week and he is still going poop in his underwear. So I don't know what to do.

Anyway, that is all I have for right now. We went camping for memorial day weekend so i will try to get pics of that up soon and will blog about it then. This weekend we are going to Kennewick for Karston's birthday so we are excited for that and then next week Thursday thru Sunday we are camping at Potholes State Park for my birthday with my mom and step dad and on Saturday we are attending a 10Th anniversary party for one of my best friends and I am really looking forward to that. So lots to look forward to. Will talk at you all later. TTFN

My Mother's Day

My Mother's Day was terrific. We got up nice and really early (lol) and went and picked up my mom and then headed over the pass to Woodland Park Zoo. The drive over was uneventful and went rather smoothly. All three boys (brad, Ethan and Cameron) slept most of the way over while I drove and mom and I talked. It was actually a really nice drive. We left Wenatchee around 7am and got to the zoo just before 10am. The weather was fabulous. Sunny with a light breeze that kept us from being hot. It was gorgeous. We couldn't have asked for better weather.

We planned out our route so that we could see just shy of 1/2 the zoo by lunch time. The boys did awesome and were so excited to see the animals. The animals seemed to be enjoying the weather too as most of them were out showing off. We had a good lunch and then headed back out to see more animals. I thought the zoo closed at 4pm but found out that it didn't close till 8pm but the inside exhibits closed at 6pm. Well come to find out it was a very good thing the zoo didn't close at 4pm because at 4pm we still had the "African Savanna" to see which includes the giraffe, elephants, zebra, monkeys, and a few other animals. But we managed to see all of that by 6pm and were ready to head home. Just as we were at the last animal viewpoint looking out at the Zebra's it started to rain. Phew! Boy am I glad it waited till we were done.

All in all it was one of the best Mother's Days I have had so far. Aside from my very first mother's day. (Nothing can replace the feeling I had on my 1st Mother's Day. The pride of finally being part of the mommy club is overwhelming. At least in my opinion.) But I am so happy I got to spend my mother's day with my boys, husband and especially my mommy. =) And the boys were in such good moods we didn't have to get on either one about anything all day. It was so wonderful. Anyway hope all my friends and family had an equally lovely day. Mom's Rock!!!!!

We found a place by the way.

So we found a place to live. Our friends Ernie and Rachel have a 1 bedroom apartment that they were needing to get the current renter out of anyway so it worked out that now they have a reason to follow through with the eviction. It's nice because our rent will be paid by Brad and I (mainly Brad. LOL) doing repairs to the apartment. It's in okay shape but definitely has some things that are in dire need of repair. So it will be a work in progress for a while probably but it's in good enough shape for us to live there while we do most of the repairs.

But before we can move in we have to wait for the current occupant to move out and then we will be shampooing the carpet and painting the whole apartment. Brad and Ernie are going to redo the sink, the drawers and cabinets around the sink and the counter top before we move in as the sink is not really in working condition. Well it works, it just doesn't drain properly therefore causing the kitchen to stink. Ewwww! But they will fix that before we move in so I am not worried about it.

However we have to be out of Bob's house by the 27Th at the latest and they would prefer sooner if possible so that causes a slight problem. We have to be out of one house 2-3 weeks before we can move into the other. But thankfully my brother in law (it was his idea) and my sister offered to let us stay with them until we can get the work done and move into the apartment. Down side to that is that we will be moving two times in a 3 week period (let's hope it is less than two weeks) which sucks because I hate moving. But hey at least we have a place to stay and an apartment to rent.

Yes it sucks because it's a 1 bedroom apartment so we will still be sharing with the boys but we have been doing that for 4 months now so it won't be any different. I look forward to getting to paint since I pretty much have free reign of colors. I am excited!!!! But we have a lot of scrubbing and steam cleaning and carpet shampooing before I can paint. BUMMER!!! =) But I enlisted the help of my sister and mom so that will be okay.

Anyway just wanted to give an update. I will keep you all posted and will talk at you all later. TTFN

Where has the time gone?

So I found a disc that I had made for my grandma when Cameron was a little baby and for some reason never sent it to her. Which is a very good thing because all the pictures from the time Cameron was born until he was almost 3 are on a disc that we can't access because the program that created the disc only runs on Windows 98 or older which we don't have. So needless to say i am heartbroken that I don't have many baby pictures of Cameron. So to find a disc with baby pictures was awesome. On the flip side it made the tears start rolling. What happened to my baby? He is 5 1/2 years old now and going to start kindergarten in the fall. WOW!!!! Where did his toddler years go? Anyway here are a few pictures I wanted to share.



Cameron's 1st smile

Daddy's hair tickles


3mos old and already trying to hold his own bottle. So big!

Such a ham right from the start.

"Tellin' stories"

Prayer Request

We are in need of some big prayers. We will have to move by the end of June into a place of our own. We are pretty sure we will be finding an apartment when the time comes which isn't a problem. I don't mind living in an apartment. The problem comes with the fact that Brad is still not back to work yet and we cannot come up with deposit money without him working. So please pray that something starts happening with the union and that he can get back to work. We have no choice but to move in June and at this point it seems as though we will be moving into the van if something doesn't happen. =) So please pray for us.

Quick vent

Okay so i am feeling very under appreciated and need to get it off my chest and then go get some things done. You don't have to read this I just needed to write it so I don't explode.


First of all we are in the middle of switching banks from Wells Fargo to Numerica. So now to my issues....

So this morning I check our accounts to make sure they are looking okay. And what do I find? Our WF acct is overdrawn because Brad used the wrong debit card for dinner last night. Not 100% his fault I should have reminded him but still none the less regardless of who's fault it is or isn't, our acct is now overdrawn. So I rush around and get the boys dressed and rush to Numerica where I have to withdraw money. I then rush to WF and deposit said money. So far i have not got an overdrawn notice so maybe I got the cash in the bank early enough that it won't have actually overdrawn thus saving us the $35 overdraft fee. I think Brad might have said Thank you but not very heartily. Oh well not a big deal.

So on to my next issue.... He calls me around 12:30 and says he got paid from Ernie (our friend he is working with right now until the union has something open.) and that he is almost home so I can go get my paycheck from the gym and go deposit a little more money in the WF acct for cushion and then deposit his check in the Numerica acct and get cash out for his dad for rent. SO that is fine with me. So he gets here and I leave. While I am gone I am text-ing him that Ernie needs to put James instead of Brad and he responds "kk lol" so curious i ask what kk stands for....he says " it's my way of saying hurry the f up nicely." OH MY GOSH!!!!! Who is the one making sure all our accounts are okay and getting cash to pay his dad? And i wasn't the one who came home so that I could make a bank run he was and yet now he is telling me to hurry up as if i was out lolly gagging around. I was so frustrated. So then I was gone roughly over an hour. I get home and neither one of the boys are asleep and laundry isnt switched. Granted I did not ask him directly to switch laundry but he knows I am working on laundry today plus he wants a certain shirt to wear tonight so I thought he would at least switch the laundry. Nope!!! But he did ask if I found and washed his shirt. ARGH!!!!! So then he has to leave as soon as I get home to go finish helping Ernie. So now here I am....I have to be the bad guy to the boys and make them go to sleep and then work at cleaning the bathroom because it is filthy and stinky and I have to continue to do laundry and try to find his shirt. And do you think i am going to get a thank you??? Probably not! Most likely the only way I will get a thank you is if I actually find the shirt he is looking for and that will be the only thing he thanks me for. He most likely won't thank me for doing any other laundry and he most likely won't thank me for cleaning the bathroom and again i might of gotten a mumbled thank you for my bank runs but not sure if I did or didn't. But my feelings are still hurt from him acting like I was lolly gagging so even a thank you won't be warmly accepted.

SO anyway that is all i have to vent about. I am just hurt and frustrated. Anyway now that i got that off my chest I am going to go get the bathroom cleaned and switch laundry. Thanks to whoever takes the time to read my vent. Hope you all have a good Apple Blossom weekend and stay cool since it's supposed to get so warm. AND BE SURE TO WEAR SUNSCREEN EVEN IF THERE IS CLOUD COVER OR WIND!!!! YOU CAN STILL GET A SUNBURN!!!!! Be safe, be happy, be healthy!!! TTFN